Love Like Jesus

Just got back from YL camp in MN. Been thinking about a lot of things, mostly about control. I have had a hard conversation this past week with a girl who point-blank told me she did not want to give up control of her "story". My first reaction, was a patient, "you-really-dont-have-control" response. It was like no matter what she said to me I was forced to give her an answer she didnt like. While I was going to give her a note to try to persuade her that allowing God to write her story was not as though she would give up making decisions and allowing God to ruin everything, but after some very wise council, I didn't. Then I started thinking that my response, was much like hers. I wanted to control the situation. I wanted her to let her idea of control go.

My good friend said something that was very much a word from God. He said, maybe this makes you more like Jesus. HUH, there's a thought, even though Jesus offers us so much more we still choose, willfully, to try to write our own story. And it hurts to see someone walk into that and just be patient that there is still hope that they will turn around. Try loving someone who has heard what you have to say, know its true and still walk away... yep that sounds like the way Jesus has loved me over some of my story. Gosh, I still cant believe I put him through that because it feels like hell, knowing that's whats happening for this girl. In the end though, I really hope it makes me more like Jesus, even if its that much harder for me to experience.