Hokay, the first real post. SO I work in a library... Not a fun job on a Sunday night. Lets just say that not too many people come into the library. Right now is a perfect time to really think about what it means to desire another person in one's life. Now, I have impossibly high standards. The problem with that is that I either seem to settle, or I am alone.
Right now however I am head over heels for just one boy in particular.Really, this is an impossible situation where I am certain that the boy in question is not interested. How do I know this? I just do. Also, I think he is bipolar. Why are you such an ass sometimes?Seriously, if I have done something wrong or offended you (don't be such a pansy) and tell me. Because I am really tired of how you can make me feel, and then flipping the switch.
Now before you simply dismiss me as this stupid girl who should just move on... I have literally given up on this before... looked around... decided to focus on other guys... and have sadly come full circle. Now, while I sit here I wonder to myself, what is it about this guy that has you so captivated. Is he so incredible that the world stops moving? Is it the softness of his voice? Is it how he seems to be so confident but then you see when he is really insecure? Is it that he reconsiders things when you ask him hard questions? What the hell makes him so special that you cant get over it?! Men out there... Really what is it that you do to us?
I don't know what the solution is for the dilemma of mine is, however, I know that I am meant for great things. And this is not the end of the world. I've been disappointed before and I've regretted relationships before. I know that I am not going to waste my time anymore when I have a great path before me.
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